Tatting for Valentine's Day!!

Last week I started tatting hearts for Valentine cards. Now you know I don't have a sweetheart so these Valentine cards are for friends and family.

The yellow heart with purple buttons is for Ms. Sarah.
The pink heart is my daughter Mary.
And the purple heart with the red buttons is for Fran.

I just bought some blank cards at the craft store and decorated them with some cute stickers that I found and the tatted hearts.

The patterns with the buttons are Abby's Heart and can be found here. This is the first pattern I have ever worked with that has buttons, and I like it. I like buttons anyway and this is a very cute pattern. The pink heart is Rosmarie Peels pattern without the handle and it can be found here. Both of these are just great patterns and I highly recommend them.

I think the best part is that I have finally figured out how to upload photos from digital camera. Yeeehhhh!! Woooohoooo! Finally this blog can have more crafts and stuff of interest. So check back soon and see how it's going.

Bright Blessings to all!!

Getting Ready for Christmas

Someone sent me an e-mail asking me to update my blog, so I thought I'd take a minute to comply.

I have found a new place to live. It is closer to work, so I'm saving money on gas and putting less miles on my car, which is good. I'm living in a relatively new house, just a few years old. I'm secluded in my little room of the house and share the house with two men. Not that happy with that really, but as you know I desperately needed a place. And you know what they say about deperate measures. The house is set in lovely neighborhood in Summerville.

As far as Alex goes, he moved Dana in right after I left, probably the same day. One of my co-workers called him cold-hearted. I would agree if I thought Alex had a heart, but I lived with him and know differently. Darling Dana actually tried to get in touch with me, she wanted to send me pictures of my dogs. That's right MY Dogs!! I bought the dogs, I fed them, I bathed them, I cleaned up after them, and loved them and spent more time with them than anyone else there, so they are mine!! But she thought it was funny to try and send me pictures. What she would probably send is pictures of her and Alex and my dogs. The sorry B%^*&^*&%*& still thinks she took something worth having from me. Hasn't realized that I never, not once tried to keep it.

So basically, things are different and still not to my liking. I could like my new place just fine except I live with men. Loud, obnoxious, lazy, messy, rude, self righteous men. I can't even use the kitchen to fix myself something to eat unless I clean up the mess made by the previous user. The same with the laundry, if I want to use the washer or the dryer I have to pull the clothes in there out of the way. One of them has some kind of hearing problem and yells everything and lies more than he could tell the truth. Does things for himself only and expects me to thank him for it. The other one would rather spend money on beer than pay his bills, he of course reminds me very much of Alex. Yea, it's just been great. I was looking forward to Christmas, not because I get to go home, but because both of them were suppose to be leaving home. Not the case now. The Beer guy has a very young daughter who will be coming to spend Christmas with him.

I know that this sounds all negative. And while it is mostly, I am thankful for a few things. I am thankful that I don't live with Alex. I'm thankful that I don't have to spend all my money on him and his bills or wants or whatever. But the reality there are that things are not that different, just closer to work and a little more lonely. I no longer have the dogs to keep me company. And that feeling is the same as when my marriage broke up and my ex took my daughter to live in NC. I feel like I have lost three children now, a fate I would wish on no one, including Darling Dana. Chihuahuas are the size of babies. So having Ace and Bailey was like have two perpetual babies. It was great for me, I never had to worry about them growing into teenagers. Teenagers are horrible monsters that torture their family members. Spielburg had a cartoon about that once, it was too funny. I think teenagers inspire the horror movies. They are written by the family members they torture.

When I said I wanted to change this blog, I meant that I wanted to change from these little horror stories that mark my existence, and put more work into my crafts. I have been tatting a little lately, getting ready for Christmas. But I have NO Christmas spirit. I should be tatting and crocheting and making presents, but I don't feel like it. This has been a hard year for me, and I am just bone weiry now. I have a little money to get some gifts with, for immediate family only, and the heck with the rest.

If I could have a few Christmas wishes, I would wish for..
1.) A place of my own.
2.) A dog of my own, no one elses, just mine!!
3.) More work for everyone!!!
4.) Christmas parties with a lot of friends and family.
5.) More smiling, laughing, and looking forward to a greater time in life!!

So I wish everyone a happy, healthy and a very Merry Christmas!!!

Bright blessings!!

Changes coming soon!!!

You want me to ride on what? What's wrong with the car?

It's just too funny!!

Hello Darling!!

Compliments of his mother.

So I did survive my bad luck day, which means it is still my bad luck day. This year I did not want to survive it. Everyday now is a new experience in pressure and stress.

I'm still have trouble finding a place to live. I have been saving money, basically by not eating. I'm depressed enough to end it all as is, and then there was this sign.

You may ask what this sign has to do with me. This sign is on the church across the street from Alex's house. This is the church that Alex's mother Sara goes to, as well as his Sister-in-law, Tammy and her two daughters, Sierra and Hannah. Also about all of Alex' s family goes to this church. Sara is in charge of the sign. She picks the sayings and puts the letters on the sign. I guess she feels that I have been staying too long also. Because living with her cruel son hasn't been enough punishment, she needs to let me know that I need to go too. Now no one here has offered me the least little bit of help, let alone any true friendship or support, but I guess they don't want me to mistake their indifference for kindness somehow. So let it be known to all, that I KNOW THAT I AM NOT WANTED!!

I do wish that they would consider my feelings a little, and understand that I do not want to stay either. And that I am doing the best I can.

Does this bother anyone else? This is a church sign. Church, which is suppose to be a home of Christians, yet none of them, not even one, has offered any help. I have never been that fond of the church. The people who attend look like they are going to work, rather than going to worship. I don't agree with their beliefs either. They once let there children's group hold a walk-a-thon to raise money to go to Myrtle Beach. They let them use a charity fund raiser to raise money for their own selfish purposes. I have never been able to respect that, and I didn't agree with them being allowed to do it. The kids could have sold candy, or had a bake sale, or raised the money in more responsible manner, but instead all they did was walk around a circle and people gave them money for it. I thought it was an insult to the true charities that do these types of fundraisers to raise money, not for themselves, but mostly for other people who suffering from a deadly disease, or have family members suffering. They are not out there raising money for themselves to go to the movies, or go on vacation. I did not agree, and although I tried to explain how I felt about, they held it anyway, and did not appreciate the fact that I refused to give them money for it.

When I first came to live with Alex, I thought these were some of the best people, not for how they treated me, which has always been with no small amount of indifference, but for how they treated others. They were at that time helping to rebuild a woman's house for her because she had no place to live. The woman is Tammy's mother, and she has 5 children of her own, none of which, with the exception of Tammy to a small degree, would even help her or give her a place to stay. But this family of people, Alex's family, got together and rebuilt this woman's house. And it may be that this is the reason they won't offer any help to me. Maybe they don't feel they received enough gratitude from her. Maybe they have fulfilled their charity quota and they feel the rest can fin for themselves. I don't know. I have always felt very alone there, at least until Alex got the puppies, which he gets to keep, and I have to leave behind, never to see again.

So the issues are my own. Everything is my fault. And I am the one who deserves to suffer and am doing so, very much. I hope this will satisfy everyone.

I would ask you to pray for me, but it is my experience that Christians don't pray for others and do not need to be bothered with the sufferings of the others. So feel free to do what they do, and ignore this post.

Bright blessings to everyone, anyway.

Bad Luck Day!!!

Here we go!!!

Well tomorrow is my bad luck day. But with everything going on, I wonder if it will be bad luck if I don't survive it. I'm not thinking it will.

July 9th. This day was orginally significant to me because this was my parents wedding anniversary. Tomorrow they would have been married for forty years, easily remembered as I was a prom night accident. My parents married in July and I was born the following January. Now back then this day wasn't really that bad for me. But my father died when I was 19, and since then the day isn't that lucky for me. I have been in two major car accidents on this date, totalling cars and creating those type of injuries that manage to stay around for a long time. What does that mean? My spine may never be straight again, some joints still moan and groan at different times. I have gotten tickets on this date at least once, but I think twice. Damn Nazis!!!! This date is also the date that my divorce for my one and only marriage was finalized. Actually, I feel quite confident in saying that the date on my head stone will read July 9. What year? Can't say yet, but with everything going on right now, tomorrow would not be that bad for me. I am so tired of this crap anyway.

What is also a possiblity, and this may lead to the head stone, is that something even worse could happen, and I will be expected to survive it. This is where you should be hearing wicked laughter, something like the late Vincent Price would do. Ahh well, I guess we'll wait and see. Just for shits and giggles though, I bought a lottery ticket for tomorrow night at lunch today. Isn't that funny? And with a few simple numbers this could just easily become the luckiest day of my life.

Yeah, right.

I do hope that all of you have a very blessed day and that only happy and wonderful things come your way!!

Blessed be!!

Happy July 4th to Everyone!!!

Here's some fireworks for ya!!!

I don't have a lot to write right now. I'm in the middle of some nasty stuff. My now ex-boyfriend Charles Alex Russell, went and found himself a new girlfriend. A nasty bit of work known as Dana. Now I don't have any money, but I have to find a place to live. She and he think it is funny and I have been enduring a great amount of cruelty from the two of them.

The really amazing thing to me is how stupid she is. I mean all she has to do is open her eyes and see how he treats the people and things that he loves so much. For instance, in a pen that is right up next to the house, he has a lab, dog. His name is Cotton, he is all white. This dog is in pen where the grass is all grown up to the point that you can hardly see the dog. He won't clean out this pen, he won't cut the grass down, he won't even clean out the water bucket for the dog. But she thinks this guy is going to treat her better.

And then there is the house itself. Now I don't know about you folks, but if my parents gave me a house, I would fix it up, clean it up and make it very comfortable for myself. All she has to do is walk thru, and I know that she has been in there, to see what needs to be done, and what could have been done by now. He has lived there for three years now.

Yes, but love is blind. Maybe, but it must be incapable of smell also, because Alex works in a land field and only showers once a week. He does no house cleaning, he doesn't pay his own bills either. He can't have a cell phone in his name because he owes every cell phone company there is money. He even had a pay as you go plan at one time that was only thirty dollars a month and would not pay that. He goes around creating debt, but not taking any responsibility for it later. Leaves it the loves of his life. His girlfriend before me, MI can attest to that also. I know now that he did do and tried to do that to her also, but she took him to court and now he has to pay two hundred dollars a month to Dorchester county or she can take his boat away. Yes, Alex does very well for himself, not by hisself, usually thru the efforts and work of the women he is involved with. But I did not do to her what Darling Dana is doing to me. Ahh, but Dana is going to get what is coming to her. I know for a fact that all Alex sees in her is $$$$ Dollar signs. How you ask, the only thing he has said about Dana is that she has two jobs!! Sound like true love to you?

But Darling Dana is enjoying her little cruelties also. All of the sudden, she is best friends with Alex's Mother Sara and Alex's sister-in-law, Tammy, both of which live right next door to us. So she just loves coming over, parking in our driveway and spending time with her best friends. The idiot doesn't realize how Alex is already using her. Alex, who is a severe alcoholic, & is partially afraid of getting a DUI, not really enough to keep from driving around with a little buzz and an open container, so he has Darling Dana come and get him. I wonder if he gives her gas money? Probably does right now, got to seem to be the great guy he is lying thru his teeth to get her to believe he is right now. Enjoy it while it last Darling Dana, cause it doesn't last long. If you want a real idea of what he is like, say something to him about his drinking in front of other people and see what happens.

The sad part is that this only proves how little loyalty there is in this world. Men have no loyalty to the women they get involved with, and women have no loyalty to other women. I would never do these things to another women, for what goes around comes around and I would not want this coming back on me. When are we going to stop doing these things to other people? And how much longer are we women going to allow men to get away with crap like this?!!!

IN the meantime, I'm practically homeless and have to spend all my time packing and looking for another place to live. Congratulations, Darling Dana on contributing to the homeless population!! And don't worry about the Karma, I'm sure that what he is doing to me right now, he will never do to you!!

ROFL!!!

Happy Fourth Everyone, and please say a little prayer for a happy independence for me.

Blessed be!!

It's so depressing, you just gotta laugh!!

I just thought this was a funny picture. I have been depressed lately with the way things are going. My positive attitude is being impossible to hold onto. But I am going to get thru this stupid crap and keep smiling!!