Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Getting Ready for Christmas


Someone sent me an e-mail asking me to update my blog, so I thought I'd take a minute to comply.

I have found a new place to live. It is closer to work, so I'm saving money on gas and putting less miles on my car, which is good. I'm living in a relatively new house, just a few years old. I'm secluded in my little room of the house and share the house with two men. Not that happy with that really, but as you know I desperately needed a place. And you know what they say about deperate measures. The house is set in lovely neighborhood in Summerville.

As far as Alex goes, he moved Dana in right after I left, probably the same day. One of my co-workers called him cold-hearted. I would agree if I thought Alex had a heart, but I lived with him and know differently. Darling Dana actually tried to get in touch with me, she wanted to send me pictures of my dogs. That's right MY Dogs!! I bought the dogs, I fed them, I bathed them, I cleaned up after them, and loved them and spent more time with them than anyone else there, so they are mine!! But she thought it was funny to try and send me pictures. What she would probably send is pictures of her and Alex and my dogs. The sorry B%^*&^*&%*& still thinks she took something worth having from me. Hasn't realized that I never, not once tried to keep it.

So basically, things are different and still not to my liking. I could like my new place just fine except I live with men. Loud, obnoxious, lazy, messy, rude, self righteous men. I can't even use the kitchen to fix myself something to eat unless I clean up the mess made by the previous user. The same with the laundry, if I want to use the washer or the dryer I have to pull the clothes in there out of the way. One of them has some kind of hearing problem and yells everything and lies more than he could tell the truth. Does things for himself only and expects me to thank him for it. The other one would rather spend money on beer than pay his bills, he of course reminds me very much of Alex. Yea, it's just been great. I was looking forward to Christmas, not because I get to go home, but because both of them were suppose to be leaving home. Not the case now. The Beer guy has a very young daughter who will be coming to spend Christmas with him.

I know that this sounds all negative. And while it is mostly, I am thankful for a few things. I am thankful that I don't live with Alex. I'm thankful that I don't have to spend all my money on him and his bills or wants or whatever. But the reality there are that things are not that different, just closer to work and a little more lonely. I no longer have the dogs to keep me company. And that feeling is the same as when my marriage broke up and my ex took my daughter to live in NC. I feel like I have lost three children now, a fate I would wish on no one, including Darling Dana. Chihuahuas are the size of babies. So having Ace and Bailey was like have two perpetual babies. It was great for me, I never had to worry about them growing into teenagers. Teenagers are horrible monsters that torture their family members. Spielburg had a cartoon about that once, it was too funny. I think teenagers inspire the horror movies. They are written by the family members they torture.

When I said I wanted to change this blog, I meant that I wanted to change from these little horror stories that mark my existence, and put more work into my crafts. I have been tatting a little lately, getting ready for Christmas. But I have NO Christmas spirit. I should be tatting and crocheting and making presents, but I don't feel like it. This has been a hard year for me, and I am just bone weiry now. I have a little money to get some gifts with, for immediate family only, and the heck with the rest.

If I could have a few Christmas wishes, I would wish for..
1.) A place of my own.
2.) A dog of my own, no one elses, just mine!!
3.) More work for everyone!!!
4.) Christmas parties with a lot of friends and family.
5.) More smiling, laughing, and looking forward to a greater time in life!!

So I wish everyone a happy, healthy and a very Merry Christmas!!!

Bright blessings!!